When I first started watching “Married to Jonas,” I was expecting something similar to The Kardashians. It was a pre-judging moment, really. To be honest, I was hoping to see a little bit more Nick Jonas too, but we don’t always get what we wish for. What I didn’t expect from this show was that I would identify with Kevin Jonas’s wife Danielle in a very unique way.
Throughout the season, Danielle has openly admitted that there are times when she gets stressed out, nervous, anxious etc. That’s perfectly understandable as she was an ordinary girl before meeting and marrying Kevin Jonas. I can’t imagine the pressure that she faces especially being in the public eye so frequently. In last night’s episode, Danielle broke down to the cameras even further about what it’s like to have panic attacks and to be consumed with anxiety during their vacation in Italy.
She is the wife of a rock star yet she goes through this. I am a blogger and I, too, face the same struggles as Danielle. A lot of people do. In television, you don’t typically see characters suffering from this, which makes it harder for people like you and me to understand that we really aren’t alone. Luckily for us, Danielle isn’t a character. She’s real. This issue is real. When I was a sophomore in college, I started having panic attacks and intense anxiety. It almost felt like it was about to take over my life. It’s a feeling I simply can’t describe. And what made it worse is that it would just appear out of nowhere. I knew I had to do something about it. When my friend told me about companies similar to Blessed CBD, who offered products that would supposedly help with my panic attacks and anxiety, I thought I had finally found what I needed to help me get through this. The sheer mention of it had me thinking about a better life. And to this day, I still think about researching more about the best CBD oil, edibles and other products. Back then, I was almost at my breaking point. It consumed me so much that I would have to leave in the middle of my classes or drop whatever it was that I was doing at the time just to get away. At that moment, things just started shutting down. You feel defeated and can’t see yourself getting up. They were triggered by your normal stressors like school, taking on too much, relationships, friendships, whatever. The difference between me and someone else is that it affects me harder than you. I even considered going to a place like Honey Lake Clinic because it just came to a point where I couldn’t continue and I just wanted that little bit of extra support.
Two years ago, I was able to share my story to my peers at school during a retreat and to hear that it impacted others in the room with me was the biggest relief. To know that I wasn’t alone in this fight was comforting and the same feeling swept over me last night as I heard Danielle describing how she feels during a panic attack – “that feeling that nothing is right or that nothing around me is right…going so far until you hit that wall.” All things that I have felt. It was like I was checking off a list of symptoms that were really feelings. But I would like to make one thing clear: there is nothing about this that makes us crazy.
There are people that suffer so much more than I do – my dearest friends even – but that doesn’t mean what I’m feeling or what you’re feeling isn’t justified. There are people who will believe that this post will make me appear weak, but it’s addressing these types of things in our lives that make us so much stronger. To me, Danielle is a heroine. I admire her strength and her ability to be so open about what she goes through and I hope she knows how many she impacted from just that episode. I am very blessed to live the life that I do. I am very fortunate, but I am okay standing up and admitting that I am just simply not always put together. I can’t tell you that’s it’s going to be okay or that it gets better because to be honest, I just don’t know. We’re all still figuring this out, but the advice I could give for someone going through this is to just talk it out. I guarantee you that having a listening ear will help, but everyone deals with stress and maybe that one person you share this with will have some tips for you on how to cope. It’s okay; it’s time to take some weight off your shoulders.
For those of you who don’t know me personally, you know that I love fashion and music and Seattle and etc. – just read my bio. But behind this blog is a real person with real everyday struggles just like you.
