w/ that last post hahah
Be sure to look out for new interviews coming soon! (I have four out right now)
and new projects on the blog including a very special one for my birthday
and spring street style photos in Seattle!
and a happier, positive, inspired me :)
Have a wonderful weekend everyone!! I’m in finals mode!
For the first time in my life, I now know what it means to build walls up around yourself. What an odd feeling after so many years and now experiencing it. We are the ones that do this to ourselves. It’s interesting because when people choose to hurt you, you are not invincible as you once though you were. You don’t bounce back right away, the wounds don’t heal themselves in seconds. It leaves this mark on you that eventually you may grow from in weeks, months, years. I constantly make myself unavailable to everyone and I do it subconsciously. If you never get too close, they won’t learn your weaknesses right?
My relationships w/ people are just me skimming the surface. “How’s school? How’s work? How’s your love life?” Those three questions and nothing else. It sucks. I constantly have to remind myself that the things I love are things that I love and not obligations or burdens.
Nothing happened to me recently that made me think this. It took me months to understand it. So I’m ready to be present again.
Filed under: Uncategorized | Tags: EMP, Life, ME, School, Seattle, Seattle University, Travel, ZipCar
- The EMP is really freakin’ cool. I went there today for a site visit and the space is amazing and beautiful. If you haven’t been there recently, you might want to check it out.
- Seattle University’s breakfast burrito…so good.
- ZipCar – The world’s largest car sharing and car club service is on my campus. You basically have a car to use whenever you want and it’s not yours and all you have to do is reserve it for a certain time. There might be costs included, but I’m not looking that up for you.
- Women in theology or writing about theology. Sometimes it doesn’t happen, get over it.
- I really like the families I heard from today.
- Finals are ready to eat me alive, maybe I’ll survive.
Filed under: Uncategorized | Tags: Fashion, Life, ME, Missoni, Roberto Cavalli, San Diego
17 years old,
I walked into the Missoni boutique and was in awe. I was in the presence of such beautifully-crafted pieces. I scanned until I had the nerve to touch, the way I usually do when examining clothing. That’s what it is I decided: an examination. (Grammatically correct? Probably not.) Everything was made with such great detail and such amazing fabric. I was seventeen years old. The salesman asked if I had wanted to try anything on. I couldn’t imagine a Missoni dress on me and looking in the mirror wearing something that cost almost $1,400. Out of sheer terror I declined and turned on my heel. Next door was Roberto Cavalli.
Every day I sit here and I sit and wonder how my life gets to be the way it is. I wake up. I go to class(es). I go to work. I go to work. When did life get rid of surprises? All I ever want are surprises. I want something everyday that takes me out of my normal schedule and fills me up with spontaneous …happiness. I’m not not happy. I feel like I walk the straight path and never go off course. If I were to go off course, I would step outside it briefly. Then I would hit the ground running.
I sit here and people pop into my head and I think you have these chances to surprise me, but then you don’t. I’m not disappointed because I know better than to simply have expectations. I think this is why I enjoy surprising people, catching them off guard, leaving them little presents, showing up at their doors, taking that spa night at the Mariott one random winter quarter. Essentially, although I am not in the real world… I am living that 9-5 cubicle job. Right. Now.
You convince yourself everyday that tomorrow is different. The to-do-list on my post it notes, in my blackberry, and on my computer tell me otherwise. We have endless possibilities in this world. We have opportunities that people will never have. If I had the time, I would just run out into the rain right now, no reason, just cause. Getting up would require me to remove the accounting book and my homework from my lap. It better be worth it, all of it. I used to look down upon endless free time because in my head, there was always a goal and a finish line. We were meant to do great things, but what happens when we reach it? Then what?
Filed under: Uncategorized | Tags: Cupcake Royale, Debbie Does Cakes, Debbie Goard, Design, Food, Humor, ME, San Francisco, Things
Hi, I am a pastry fiend. I love all kind of desserts: cupcakes, pie, ice cream, cookies, anything w/ fruit, and CAKES. Yesterday, I dragged my friend along with me down to Cupcake Royale so that I could fulfill my craving of red velvet cupcakes. It was a craving that lasted a week!
Today, I discovered Debbie Does Cakes. Debbie Goard is a cake mastermind from San Francisco. I can only describe her work of art as the cakes that celebrities show off at their birthday parties, but of course Debbie has much more class than that.
The burrito was spicy. I don’t remember asking for invisible jalapenos in it. I suppose I learned a very important moral just then through my own experience. If something is going to “pack the punch” too hard, throw it out. But that burrito got the best of me. I was led to believe that that the boy’s bathroom was the trash room and obviously had walked too far.
Oh that one got me good.
And now I hear that voice in the back of my head from a dear friend, “Your life is fascinating…”
Why yes, yes it is.
From time-to-time I still get asked what exactly it is that I do. People don’t know what blogging is or what even having a blog means and I don’t expect them to know. It’s a relatively new term, but it is growing to become something much bigger in our world. I usually tell people the standard, “it’s a fashion and music based blog out of Seattle and discusses my life as a college student. ItsYowYow covers that, but I think it covers a lot more.
Blogging is both good and bad. I type faster than I think sometimes, which is why there are always typos. For the most part, I write exactly what I’m thinking and rarely edit. This results in again, the typos and the misinterpreted hate comments I receive from some posts.
You think that your writing is carefree and that it does not affect anyone because they’re just words, but no, they hit harder than you think. Constantly I wonder if what I write is going to get me into trouble someday whether it is something you shouldn’t have said or you accidentally reveal too much. I recently suffered the consequences of knowing what it’s like to put your whole life out there and as much as you want people to relate to you and feel like you have written something worthwhile, there are people out there who will ultimately destroy you. Yes, in case you haven’t figured it out, some terrible people walk among us. So you put yourself out there and you think that you are a risk taker and doing something great, but be warned because it comes with a price. As bloggers, we forget that people even read this. The numbers on the left side don’t really mean anything to me. It’s just a number. We forget that our friends and family read this and people we don’t know read this.
My blog is what it is. I like it. I hope that I can inform you about things. But it’s not my life.
Filed under: Uncategorized | Tags: Gossip Girl, ME, Television, Life, Degrassi, Lost, The OC, Glee, The Office, Criminal Minds
Ask a girl the number one thing she looks for in a guy and you will almost always get the response of “a good personality.” It’s pretty obvious that no one wants to date a boring douche bag right? There’s no “type” for a good personality. In fact, that’s a lot of people and it really just depends on your taste in guys.
The other day my friend told me that I typically go for the shy awkward types. I said, “So what?!” because those guys are usually the nice ones…or so I believe. My guy friend said, you should go after guys your comfortable with that are like your friends. But you can’t really date your friends…
In the past few months, I’ve been walking around this school pointing out certain people that are not necessarily people that I like, but people with personality traits that I want to find in a husband. Now that’s a long time away, but a girl has to be prepared. I guess I’m very confused because I haven’t figured out what I want in a boyfriend, but I know what I would want in a husband.
Meet the personality types below: They aren’t the jocks, they aren’t the most popular, they’re definitely not bad boys. They are the dorks. They are super cute and lucky for me there are most of the time overlooked.
Dan Humphrey – Gossip Girl
Filed under: Uncategorized | Tags: Ashton Kutcher, Chat Roulette, Culture, Life, ME, News, Scandal, Things
(Look Ashton does it too!)
Good evening everyone!! I was recently taking some time off from my computer lately so that’s why posts have been scarce, but I’m back! Fashion posts… still coming don’t you worry haha
Tonight, I was with my friends when we decided to test out Chat Roulette. I’ve been hearing lots of stories on it recently, but didn’t really get all the hype. It basically is a website where you hook up your web cam and you click a button and at random you will be given a person to video chat with. You can either continue talking to them or click “Next.” I know, so powerful right?
After nearly fifteen minutes of Chat Roulette, we met a couple from Portland State University, a man in a mask, creepy older men, and definitely things that you should not be seeing from a stranger over a web cam. My overall thoughts? I don’t think I will have the urge to ever do this again. I understand why people may find this entertaining, but it can also be dangerous and I do not think that people under the age of 18 should be using it especially with the content that is being streamed over the internet through this. Ultimately, I do not think this is a good idea and I can see a lot more bad than good coming from this type of activity. Remember when parents told their kids to never chat w/ strangers online? Video chat kind of ups the stakes a bit.
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Filed under: Uncategorized | Tags: Vera Wang, ME, Fashion, Television, Life, School, Fall 2010, Jersey Shore, Snooki
I love love love Vera Wang! Always! I’m especially excited because she used lots of black and gray in her collection this year, which I have pretty much been wearing all year long. There’s nothing wrong w/ the Snooki hair. In fact, before Snooki, I had my hair styled in a Snooki up-do for my senior homecoming and it was my favorite look of all my dances throughout my high school career. The only we reason we don’t like it is because it’s Snooki, but Vera Wang makes it look classy.
So I was doing some reflective thinking over the weekend. I’m kind of a work-a-holic. That means I never get bored because there is always something to do. I have endless to-do-lists on my computer, on my phone, on Word files. Sometimes items on the list will stay on there forever. Some are just ingrained into my head forever until they are accomplished, you know the usuals – finish college w/ my degree, get married, have a job (the dream job in fact) have kids, buy a house – own a boutique etc etc. But I’m giving myself an expiration date for everything, and I can’t live life that way.
That brought me to a couple questions. At one point, do I stop? Once I’ve done all of those things, what else will I strive for or will my life be so constant that there will be nothing left for me to do?
Now I have two more questions. I’m still young. I decided to compare myself to people I went to high school with and people I go to college with now (you should never really do that) to see what we all thought we were meant to do in life, and are we doing it? Are we making it happen for us? Or did we just settle?
Responses:
“I imagined myself getting out of my small town and being something rather than sticking in small Kingsport, TN like all my friends and family, basically doing what I feel is best and seeing what else is out there and I believe I have. I’m in Hawaii haha”
“Well, yes and no! I always saw myself being happy with my choices, and I always thought that meant following norms and going to a university and not working (haha). But I’m at a community college and working almost full time and I love where I am. I also saw myself achieving my goal of becoming involved in film for a job, and even though I’m not there yet I’m doing a lot with photography.”
“ok…well I always saw myself being near home, staying close with those friends of mine from back home. I never saw our bond ever breaking because we were so close. I knew I wanted to go to college, but never even thought about a city like Seattle. I wanted to go to school near all of my best friends.
Now, things have definitely changed. My definition of friend is completely different, and it’s hard to see how far I’ve grown from my Oregon friends. I know that it’s normal and I am so tremendously happy with the community of love and support I’ve developed here, but I miss the old way of life sometimes.”
“I always thought I would work in medicine, I thought I was meant to help people get better I’m achieving it in a different way then I thought I would. i feel like i had to “dumb down” my goals, so i switched to community health, which is more like promoting and educating healthcare to people, rather than working in medicine. I know that I cant be what I want to be so I’m trying to be happy with what I can be.”
“Play guitar for a living. And I’m on my way, yes.”
