Nothing can sum up the end of another year at college better than the song “Home” by Edward Sharpe and the Magnetic Zeros.
My roommate moved out today and we had decided to put the room back together the way we had entered it back in September. After she left, I didn’t want to come back because it was no longer home to me. Home was the cozy humble abode that we had made it. It was having her here in the room with me. It was my bed up against the window sill where I would always sit to watch the view from outside. Now my bed is against the wall and even though it is made, it is not made for me to sleep in anymore.
I guess we have finally grown up. We leave behind convenience, security, a little irresponsibility, a sprinkle of dependability, and we set forth to the world in making home more than just a location. Building a home is hard work and sometimes we need more than just company and furniture. You need flexibility, trust and creativity.
At the end of last year, I compiled together a post that featured funny quotes from my friends from the entire year, inside jokes, and a series of photos from beginning to end. It was a year to remember. This year, I don’t have that. I’ve got the pictures, sure. I have some quotes, maybe. To be honest, before I got to this point, I wanted this to be a year that I needed to forget. A home is not perfect. My home in Seattle is not broken, but it has been a work in progress, like most homes.
Before writing this post, I perched myself cross-legged on top of my window sill and looked over the city one last time. I will never get to have this view again. I’ll never live in this room again. I’m one step closer to the dream life I’ve always imagined for myself, but I leave behind an incredible experience. For the past two years, I have spent too much time away from my studies just looking out. I guess I don’t have any real evidence to show you what I have done this year.
I wish you could all see what I see… a huge truck leaving the towel factory from across the street 🙂
Edit: I wrote a really shitty ending to this last night. and I still can’t write it…
Congratulations to everyone taking the next big leap in their lives. Seattle University’s class of 2010, oh how I adore you…